This morning I was convicted by something my husband said. We were on our way to church, incredibly late, after a sleepless night and a long morning of tears and general fussiness.
“I wonder sometimes, if our hard moments are God trying to speak to our hearts and remind us that we can’t do this on our own strength, and we are trying to.”
Those were true words. That’s exactly what I’d been trying to do.
A little background information for those who don’t know me:
I like order. My classroom is a better representation of that than my t-shirt drawer, but nevertheless. When there isn’t order in places I feel like I should have control, I become frazzled, and when I am frazzled, doubt creeps in.
We know where doubt comes from.
So this morning. I doubted. I was frazzled.
“Why are they crying? What am I doing wrong?”
“Why won’t she sleep? What am I doing wrong?”
“Why are we late? Why couldn’t I get us together faster?”
The truth is this. When I doubt….When I question myself….I am putting the spotlight on me. It’s not about me. It never was, I never want it to be….when I pause from the frazzle and think about that, I remember. My strongest desire is for this journey (all of it, not just the foster care part) to be about Jesus…for the kiddos with us to experience His love through me.
Here’s to extending myself grace. Frazzled or not. So that I won’t get in the way of Christ in us, our only Hope.
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So profound. Only through Christ can we serve His hurting kids. 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️🎚👆